I've been doing a lot of thinking lately about BALANCE. It is something I truly struggle with. April and May I tried to focus on moderation and balance and simply taking life as it comes. My goal was to learn how to not beat myself up over mistakes in health and fitness and to enjoy the journey.
HOWEVER!! Lately, I've been swerving away from that brief practice and I REALLY want to just go ALL OUT! Should I? What could happen in my life over the next 6 months if I took that leap and went all out? I'm tempted to do this. It agrees with my personality.
I am in the mood for extreme diet and fitness. I want to see what I'm capable of. I'm tired of feeling like a loser. And I have big hidden question marks within wondering "What can I REALLY do if I tried my best"? What would my body be able to accomplish? Could I run a marathon? Can I look better than I did after I had Cameron? Is that even possible anymore?? Can I do most anything physically that I tried to?
BUT...is this is mistake? Would I only be an extreme fitness girl for a short season? What are the consequences? BUT...what if it wasn't just for a season? What if it lasted just like the extreme choice in my life to become a wife and mom lasted? Being a wife and mom is now just part of my identity. What if the same could be true of this adventure? Or will I just fail? Why can't balance and normality be sufficient for me? I know it's the most sensible so why do I shy away from it?
Lisa
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It's only a mistake if you quite when things aren't conducive to that extreme. That's what makes you such an exceptional wife and mother. Did you jump right in and hit it 110%? Yes! Then you stuck with it when it wasn't easy or going smooth. I believe in you Lisa, no matter which way you do or don't go!
ReplyDeleteNeither of us are good balance people. That's part of what makes us "us"! :-) And I would not have it any other way. They key is to be able to recover and continue after the huge up is gone and the downhill has started. You should go all out. Hit it with everything you are worth! The worst thing that can happen is that your newly developed shape will he temporary. For me the balance happens AFTER that. Life is short. Too short not to be true to ourselves. And if that means hitting things HARD to see results now, then I am all for it! Not many people ever get to look as hot as you did in January of 2008. (Yes Compass was 2 years ago!). Why worry about how long you can keep it when you get there. Get there and enjoy every single second! And if it passes, be glad you got to have it while it was there. Balance is healthy. But never reaching for our dreams with all our efforts is not.
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