Update time. I've been taking Cell-Tech for 47 days now, and I've worked out diligently since my last post. I also attended my first JiuJitsu class since March. Here's the jist of it all in bullet-points:
-7/14/10. Ran a new 3 mile personal best of 17:32. That puts me 33 seconds off my goal. However this weeks grappling class ended in a very long (20 minute-ish) sparring session with my instructor. It's amazing how much strength, determination and focus I lose when I am tired. To remedy this I am going to add a mile to my weekly runs. The goal is still sub 17 minutes for 3 miles, But I need to make sure I am pushing myself for 20 plus minutes.
-My weight is up... In a good way. I've gained about 10 pounds. If I gain 10 more over the next 50 day's I will be thrilled. I need 200 to be the lightest number I see on the scale, not a mid-day, post meal number.
-Pushups are hard. I can do more than when I last posted, and I might cheat my way into the 70's on a PT test. But I am nowhere near the 100 hard-core, good form, movements I would like.
-I can easily flat-bench 250. This was one of my goals that I am excited to reach. Now I need to get 350 on squat and 450 on dead lift. Squats are next. After I reach the 250-350-450 mark, each goal will go up 100 pounds.
-I am now in the best shape of my life. I can lift more, run farther, and grapple better, than ever before. I'm not where I want to be, but I am excited about the future. I feel blessed to have a healthy body and hope that God allows me to always be physically capable.
I want to end with a reminder to myself. Physical fitness for life is a marathon, not a sprint. There will be ups and there will be downs. But if I am consistent and approach each workout with intensity, the results I want will come.
Saturday, July 24, 2010
Saturday, July 10, 2010
Plan Z
Okay, I just looked back through some of my posts here and see MANY dancing thoughts but ZERO action. How pathetic is that?! But enough looking back...onto a new thought process and idea I had last night:
I was dwelling on some of my mental obstacles that I listed in my last post. A good chunk of them could be eliminated with my NEW idea...
K.I.S.S. Keep. It. Simple. Stupid.
I need to live this life. I love event planning and that incorporates food...lots of it. That is part of who I am so it stays. I want to be normal and live a manageable life. So I want to simply incorporate DAILY HEALTHY CHOICES into my life.
I realize this is completely opposite of going all out as I've talked about doing before! When I talk about going all out, I know I'm not being reasonable but it's the only way that usually excites me to action because I'm a huge "go big or go home" style of person. HOWEVER, I am at a point right now where I need to keep it simple, real, and doable.
I MUST, I NEED to be fit before I'm 30. I am terrified of turning 30 in the condition I'm in. I can't even mentally go there right now! I have 21 months to get healthy and fit. That's reasonable for sure BUT I have to do it not just THINK it! If I don't ACT then those 21 months will pass and I will be the same...and more miserable than anyone can imagine on my 30th birthday.
So, my new project is 21 months to be fit. That is MUCH slower pace than anything I've ever WANTED to do! But it is the real way to do it and maintain a real lifestyle.
The PLAN:
- don't eliminate parties with good and fun food. NO deprivation. This is critical to my health issue that I deal with as well...depriving myself is a HUGE trigger in my dangerous disease.
-Do moderate the bad food to appropriate times, not indulging in it in everyday life.
- Make DAILY choices to eat smart.
- Exercise 3 times a week, with hopes of increasing it gradually
- Make active choices in leisure time.
That's my KISS plan. This is not plan A...or even plan B....it is plan Z.....and it better work!
I was dwelling on some of my mental obstacles that I listed in my last post. A good chunk of them could be eliminated with my NEW idea...
K.I.S.S. Keep. It. Simple. Stupid.
I need to live this life. I love event planning and that incorporates food...lots of it. That is part of who I am so it stays. I want to be normal and live a manageable life. So I want to simply incorporate DAILY HEALTHY CHOICES into my life.
I realize this is completely opposite of going all out as I've talked about doing before! When I talk about going all out, I know I'm not being reasonable but it's the only way that usually excites me to action because I'm a huge "go big or go home" style of person. HOWEVER, I am at a point right now where I need to keep it simple, real, and doable.
I MUST, I NEED to be fit before I'm 30. I am terrified of turning 30 in the condition I'm in. I can't even mentally go there right now! I have 21 months to get healthy and fit. That's reasonable for sure BUT I have to do it not just THINK it! If I don't ACT then those 21 months will pass and I will be the same...and more miserable than anyone can imagine on my 30th birthday.
So, my new project is 21 months to be fit. That is MUCH slower pace than anything I've ever WANTED to do! But it is the real way to do it and maintain a real lifestyle.
The PLAN:
- don't eliminate parties with good and fun food. NO deprivation. This is critical to my health issue that I deal with as well...depriving myself is a HUGE trigger in my dangerous disease.
-Do moderate the bad food to appropriate times, not indulging in it in everyday life.
- Make DAILY choices to eat smart.
- Exercise 3 times a week, with hopes of increasing it gradually
- Make active choices in leisure time.
That's my KISS plan. This is not plan A...or even plan B....it is plan Z.....and it better work!
Friday, June 11, 2010
Overcoming the Concrete
I feel like my entire body has been stuck in CEMENT. I cannot move forward even though I want to. I can think of A MILLION reasons why I would love to be physically fit and beautiful but I'm stuck. Aside from deeply rooted emotions, what are the reasons why I'm stuck?
BRAINSTORM:
-Fear of losing motivation
-Fear of losing any ground I cover
-Fear of being worse than I was before I started
-Not wanting to feel angry for the "unfairness" of the sacrifices I have to personally do regarding food and exercise to look even half way decent compared to what other women have to do
-Not having the discipline to follow an exercise plan
-Feeling upset that I have to cut any fun food from my lifestyle of party planning and celebrations.
-Feeling deprived of being normal.
-Feeling like no matter how hard I try that I'll never be good enough so why try?
-Feeling like my body isn't designed to look good so I'm wasting time.
-Getting mad that it takes so much focus to look "normal"
Ok, so those are a handful of things that hold me back...now onto the OVERCOMING part...??
BRAINSTORM:
-Fear of losing motivation
-Fear of losing any ground I cover
-Fear of being worse than I was before I started
-Not wanting to feel angry for the "unfairness" of the sacrifices I have to personally do regarding food and exercise to look even half way decent compared to what other women have to do
-Not having the discipline to follow an exercise plan
-Feeling upset that I have to cut any fun food from my lifestyle of party planning and celebrations.
-Feeling deprived of being normal.
-Feeling like no matter how hard I try that I'll never be good enough so why try?
-Feeling like my body isn't designed to look good so I'm wasting time.
-Getting mad that it takes so much focus to look "normal"
Ok, so those are a handful of things that hold me back...now onto the OVERCOMING part...??
Monday, June 7, 2010
Progress?
This post was supposed to be about measured progress. Instead it's just about measured. 6:30am marked my first workout since March. I was shocked. Monday's are going to be focused on muscular endurance, so I start with push-ups, etc. I also stretched and jogged to warm up, neither of which I've ever done before.
Here were my results:
-jogging to the corner and back was difficult
-40 push-ups with good form was difficult
-10 pull-ups was pushing it
-even 10 dips was hard
-my plank lasted a whopping 30 seconds
It's embarrassing to post bad numbers. But I did it and I prefer that to the alternative.
Although I've done a good job staying off the scale (the reality is I will never be happy with the number on it anyway, so it's guaranteed to disappoint me), I've witnessed interesting changes in my body since March. My tummy has a layer of fat that wasn't there before and my back and arms are much thinner. My legs are still toned, but much smaller and not very firm.
I'll end on a positive note. Nowhere to go from here, but up!
Monday, May 24, 2010
Balance Bound
I've been doing a lot of thinking lately about BALANCE. It is something I truly struggle with. April and May I tried to focus on moderation and balance and simply taking life as it comes. My goal was to learn how to not beat myself up over mistakes in health and fitness and to enjoy the journey.
HOWEVER!! Lately, I've been swerving away from that brief practice and I REALLY want to just go ALL OUT! Should I? What could happen in my life over the next 6 months if I took that leap and went all out? I'm tempted to do this. It agrees with my personality.
I am in the mood for extreme diet and fitness. I want to see what I'm capable of. I'm tired of feeling like a loser. And I have big hidden question marks within wondering "What can I REALLY do if I tried my best"? What would my body be able to accomplish? Could I run a marathon? Can I look better than I did after I had Cameron? Is that even possible anymore?? Can I do most anything physically that I tried to?
BUT...is this is mistake? Would I only be an extreme fitness girl for a short season? What are the consequences? BUT...what if it wasn't just for a season? What if it lasted just like the extreme choice in my life to become a wife and mom lasted? Being a wife and mom is now just part of my identity. What if the same could be true of this adventure? Or will I just fail? Why can't balance and normality be sufficient for me? I know it's the most sensible so why do I shy away from it?
Lisa
HOWEVER!! Lately, I've been swerving away from that brief practice and I REALLY want to just go ALL OUT! Should I? What could happen in my life over the next 6 months if I took that leap and went all out? I'm tempted to do this. It agrees with my personality.
I am in the mood for extreme diet and fitness. I want to see what I'm capable of. I'm tired of feeling like a loser. And I have big hidden question marks within wondering "What can I REALLY do if I tried my best"? What would my body be able to accomplish? Could I run a marathon? Can I look better than I did after I had Cameron? Is that even possible anymore?? Can I do most anything physically that I tried to?
BUT...is this is mistake? Would I only be an extreme fitness girl for a short season? What are the consequences? BUT...what if it wasn't just for a season? What if it lasted just like the extreme choice in my life to become a wife and mom lasted? Being a wife and mom is now just part of my identity. What if the same could be true of this adventure? Or will I just fail? Why can't balance and normality be sufficient for me? I know it's the most sensible so why do I shy away from it?
Lisa
Tuesday, May 11, 2010
Setbacks
My intention was to post every month. Somehow April has turned into May. Better late than never, right?
The theme of my workouts since posting last is setbacks. My knee's are hammered from JiuJitsu so at my Wife's recommendations I decided to take an 8 week grappling break. Also because of the injurys, running was out of the question. But I need my cardio. It's an important part of who I want to be physically. A little research revealed that the Navy allows their personal to test the PFT on an elliptical. Good enough for sailors, good enough for me.
April is also our birthday month. This is the box my Baby got me.
Inside was LOTS of get big helpers!
So I was all primed to get ripped. I quickly resolved to hit the gym on my way home from work every day. 10 Days into it I re-tore a tendon in my elbow. It's an injury I've battled for going on a decade. Discouraging is a giant understatement. Even using the upper portion of the elliptical is impossible.
So here I sit. My 8 week hiatus from JiuJitsu ends next Thursday. Hopefully I can adapt my style to allow light rolling despite my elbow. I know good and well I should be on the elliptical and just not using the top half of it. Seems skinny people get paralyzed by physical ineptness too. Hopefully my next post will be about measured progress.
On a better note, Lisa and I have started walking and jogging together. We do just over 3 miles a night. Cumulative it's more miles a week than I was logging running hard during intense training! The time we get is invaluable and we always feel better when we're done than we did before we started. Our time out is always the highlight of my day!
The theme of my workouts since posting last is setbacks. My knee's are hammered from JiuJitsu so at my Wife's recommendations I decided to take an 8 week grappling break. Also because of the injurys, running was out of the question. But I need my cardio. It's an important part of who I want to be physically. A little research revealed that the Navy allows their personal to test the PFT on an elliptical. Good enough for sailors, good enough for me.
April is also our birthday month. This is the box my Baby got me.
Inside was LOTS of get big helpers!
So I was all primed to get ripped. I quickly resolved to hit the gym on my way home from work every day. 10 Days into it I re-tore a tendon in my elbow. It's an injury I've battled for going on a decade. Discouraging is a giant understatement. Even using the upper portion of the elliptical is impossible.
So here I sit. My 8 week hiatus from JiuJitsu ends next Thursday. Hopefully I can adapt my style to allow light rolling despite my elbow. I know good and well I should be on the elliptical and just not using the top half of it. Seems skinny people get paralyzed by physical ineptness too. Hopefully my next post will be about measured progress.
On a better note, Lisa and I have started walking and jogging together. We do just over 3 miles a night. Cumulative it's more miles a week than I was logging running hard during intense training! The time we get is invaluable and we always feel better when we're done than we did before we started. Our time out is always the highlight of my day!
Wednesday, April 7, 2010
Nothing
I've waited with this white screen in front of me for almost 20 minutes and nothing is coming to me. I have no words. No thoughts. No actions. Nothing to contribute at this time.
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