I feel like my entire body has been stuck in CEMENT. I cannot move forward even though I want to. I can think of A MILLION reasons why I would love to be physically fit and beautiful but I'm stuck. Aside from deeply rooted emotions, what are the reasons why I'm stuck?
BRAINSTORM:
-Fear of losing motivation
-Fear of losing any ground I cover
-Fear of being worse than I was before I started
-Not wanting to feel angry for the "unfairness" of the sacrifices I have to personally do regarding food and exercise to look even half way decent compared to what other women have to do
-Not having the discipline to follow an exercise plan
-Feeling upset that I have to cut any fun food from my lifestyle of party planning and celebrations.
-Feeling deprived of being normal.
-Feeling like no matter how hard I try that I'll never be good enough so why try?
-Feeling like my body isn't designed to look good so I'm wasting time.
-Getting mad that it takes so much focus to look "normal"
Ok, so those are a handful of things that hold me back...now onto the OVERCOMING part...??
Friday, June 11, 2010
Monday, June 7, 2010
Progress?
This post was supposed to be about measured progress. Instead it's just about measured. 6:30am marked my first workout since March. I was shocked. Monday's are going to be focused on muscular endurance, so I start with push-ups, etc. I also stretched and jogged to warm up, neither of which I've ever done before.
Here were my results:
-jogging to the corner and back was difficult
-40 push-ups with good form was difficult
-10 pull-ups was pushing it
-even 10 dips was hard
-my plank lasted a whopping 30 seconds
It's embarrassing to post bad numbers. But I did it and I prefer that to the alternative.
Although I've done a good job staying off the scale (the reality is I will never be happy with the number on it anyway, so it's guaranteed to disappoint me), I've witnessed interesting changes in my body since March. My tummy has a layer of fat that wasn't there before and my back and arms are much thinner. My legs are still toned, but much smaller and not very firm.
I'll end on a positive note. Nowhere to go from here, but up!
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